The Fear Within..

All i have to console myself  is the memory of what once was..

My heart was as innocent as a new born baby,as open as a 

missionary position & as unique as a unicorn...

Before i met you,all i ever dream`t of  is what it feels like to 

be in love thats why when you showed up i jumped on the 

love wagon without hesitation,with the mind that i was on

my way to paradise...

The 1st few months was so blissful,i kept asking myself

why people say all sort of bad things about Love???..

why do they say Love is the reason for every for every

action whether good or bad??? why do some people

call it the cold killer??

My heart was too innocent to understand & was blinded

by Love. As time went by i noticed changes,changes so

bad,changes so significant like empty promises made by

politicians before being sworn into office...

My innocent heart began to question things,began to

wonder why things could not stay the way they

were in the beginning,began to wonder why hours 

in a day went from looking like a minute to feeling

like a year...

I was deep in thoughts,so deep in thought the 

night skies was clearer than my mind.waking up

each day was a battle for survival because all i did
was run after you like a kid running after a butterfly

and making no progress when it came to catching

it...

My heart that was once as bright as the midday sun 

became darker than the hades when you told me it 

was over..what did i do? where did i go wrong??

can`t we please make this work??

I crawled like a baby a baby who just learnt to crawl 

after you because all i ever wanted was a happy ending

but to no avail..

You took my heart because i made you the queen of  it

& there was no where to run to,even sleep could not 

save my heart from crying because all i see in my dream
 is You..

All i had was hopes for a brighter day and when it never 

came,i overthrew you as queen,took my heart back,bind

the pieces together with chains the size of the ones used 

to hold a ship`s anchor,locked it up and threw the keys

so far even mother nature would require divine help 

finding it..

Although my heart is broken,i feel alot better now, alot

safer because i look up to no one but myself for happiness.

sad thing is i`m never jumping on that wagon again for 

the fear i have within...

PS...I`m fine...Just a Poem.